Lately somehow I always feel troubled, confused, and each is doing something it will be messy. Maybe one of them because I feel guilty against someone and too many things weighing down my thoughts are. This continued for a few days. Confused because I have to defend the value of the so nice while pursued by the work I did now. Tired, tired of having to divide power and my thoughts are in the same time. But this is my intentions, whatever happens I must survive. If my morning on campus after going home should immediately work, spending my day every outdoors. Three to four hours is an opportunity for me to take a break. I always take advantage of this opportunity in order for a short time this quality to break. I'm bored, fed up with all this. But should be how again, this is my decision.

Every days I always shown the workers hard with their hair that is already white. Those who start brittle still have to fight hard for the sake of their families live. With both their hands are wrinkled, they have to bear a very heavy items. With both their feet are fragile, must be willing to walk the road for meters for the sake of their family. Sweat dripping constantly. Seeming to beckon a break for a bit. I always thought why in the age of those who are already very old still have to work as hard as that? For a moment think by me, so if you don't want it that way, working hard is as long as you are still strong and still young. It's like a reprimand against me so that I am always thankful and not easy to complain with what I am working on at the moment. That is true, it became one of my encouragement to be more appreciative of the time.

Vocabulary :

1. Constantly   : Terus menerus

2. Fragile         : Rapuh

3. Wrinkle       : Keriput

Today is not too different from the yesterday, not many new things that I'm going through.

Start all activity that feels very boring. I wanted to like they are free to do something new with their free time, but I just caged by time I make. I dont know how long this thing is holding me. I always see them free run free with their feet, laughing with their mouth, and the free dance with their bodies.

How envious I was with them. They do like teenager, who was always happy and pleased, free to do anything with his spare time, but my time just ran out for undue things teenagers do. Right now I'm just thinking I'm working just to get to school. Just thinking how I didn't vex my parents because both guys have to bear my burden. I just thought to when to be like this, I would also like to like them. Those who could walk with his spare time. 

Vocabulary :

1. burden : beban

2. caged   : bersangkar

3. envious  : iri

Have you ever watched the movie of Hachiko The Dog Story ? I think most of people ever watching this movie. But i wont tell you that story because i have another story about my cat and i love him so much. At the early 2016, it was my first time i have a cat as my pet and i started to love him because funny etc. He is so cute, fluffy and adorably fat, make me spoiled him so much. I took him to bath and i bought his favorite food at the pet shop near my house and i even shared a bed which my cat. I really loved my cat, because beside be obey to me. He was very cute either. He always been loyal to me. He always waited in front of the bathroom until i finish shower. Cheer me up when i got tired even when i go home late because of work. He still wait of me in front of the door and welcomed me wait his soft tail. And 3 years i been true together with my cat until finally he died on 2017, i cried my self when he left me.

Vocabulary
1. Sad
2. Jealous
3. Obey

when our distance is far away

Maybe when i wrote this, when we were far away from each other and i want to tell him that i missed. I want to continue my story after occuple months without having him of by side. I went a long way to reach my dream to finish my study. It's been hard for me advers. I still feel his breat when we were together by side, but now everything fell so emty because you were not beside me anymore. I actually not doing anything because my mind was not clear enough and i can't focused on manything here. And finally i start my daily activity, some new activity for sure. Getting to now to each other, i feels that i will had many friends whose andbe my remedy when i got sad. Even thought it can't me from still made missing him . Sheet after sheet began to occupty me at the time . At that time i am focused to complete my task, so that i do not disappoint those who believe in me.

Vocabulary

1. Buy

2. Feel

3. Happy